U R Y

Came back to blog again before my super-duper-crazy-study-night with Lit.

I was doing my quiet time.
It's actually one of my most successful worship quiet times.
There were times whereby my worship quiet times were disturbed by my family, MSN NUDGES(Haha.), and the *drr drr* sound from my phone.
Oh ya, my definition of a worship quiet time is when I spend time with God through singing/guitar instead of a 'normal' qt by reading and learning from the WoG, in order to kick it up a notch ya knoww.
This time round I changed everything.
Sister having tuition, so no sister-disturbances.
Parents not at home, so no parents constantly walking in and out + asking what I'm doing(always asking).
Grandpa knows I already ate and done everything I've to, so would never walk in.
Made my MSN become Busy to ensure no nudges nor sounds.
Made my phone to Meeting so that not even vibrations can be felt.
Kept house phones away from me.
Everything just seemed perfect.
So after that, I was thinking, what song does God want to drop into my heart today?
Prayed, no song dropped.
So I told myself, maybe God wants me to learn from His Word.
That's when I noticed Windows Media Player was on my bar.
I maximised it and played my playlist on random.
The first song that came up was U.R.Y..
My first thought, "I've never thought of that."
I went back to my old chord book (aka sermon book 4...) to find the chords.
From there, I had my little worship session with God.
I was slightly distracted cause I was going louder and my sister's tuition teacher was outside, till God dragged me into the song again.
Really felt His presence.
Two of us.
One room.
Nothing else inbetween.

So during worship He dropped me a chapter, Matthew 8:16-17.
Odd because I've never looked into that verse before.
Good because I know that He was really here.
I took a look, and decided, these two verses alone don't seem to make alot of sense by themselves. Then chose to look at Matthew 8 as a chapter.
The titles, The Man with Leprosy, The Faith of the Centurion, Jesus Heals Many, Jesus Calms the Storm, and part of The Healing of the Two-Demon Possesed Men. I don't quite understand The Cost of Following Jesus part of my understanding but I guess God'll reveal it as time goes by.
The reason why I looked into these few titles is because, they all talk about MIRACLES. And in the first few titles, excluding the last healing of the demon-possesed men, all the people had FAITH.

I knew God had reasons for dropping me the song and the verses. They are what I need most at this point of time.
Through the song, He reminded me..
The reason I'm living...
The reason I'm serving...
The reason I'm studying...
The reason I'm giving my all...
The reason I'm not stopping...
The reason I'm here...
The reason I'm doing EVERYTHING...
Is all because of Him.
I've been studying like nuts these past few days, and constantly spamming in a way, and not been really giving my all into Him. There are days that I know that I've skipped quiet time just because of studies. And I'm reminded, that the reason I'm first studying is because He first called me to, and there's no reason that I've to neglect Him because of something that He asked me to do. It's the priority.

Through verses, God reminded me. Through FAITH comes MIRACLES. NO FAITH = NO HOPE = NOTHING. It's more than just BELIEVING! It's BELIEVING in the UNBELIEVABLE and the IMPOSSIBLE. Before Jesus came to the people, they all had the mindset that "Oh you've got leprosy, you're dead meat.". No one believed that "I can be cured." until Jesus came! When He came, He healed illnesses and diseases that were impossible to heal! He had done the impossible!
So why aren't some of us having faith?
Honestly speaking, I've faith. However, I realised that many a time, the faith in me, believes in what's reality. Not the impossibility. When the odds are 1:100, sometimes I still think that, the odds are impossible. But I've got to say, this is wrong. I'm changing it, cause God has shown me the impossible through His Word and there is no way that I can't believe it cause His Word shows it all. I'm changing my attitude of faith to a 100% pure child-like faith. The faith that believes in everything, no matter how ridiculous it sounds. Everyone else who reads this, time to have your faith right if you've not yet.

I thank God for a meaningful quiet time, cause I've really learnt alot from it.
Maris Stella isn't barren anymore, for the fruit is plentiful.

Time to change. Everything.

-david